Well what can I say, gotta say my self awareness is up there on my list of things I like about myself.
I have a great ability to manage my inner dialogue. I find myself having incredible highs and despairing lows, and yet my inner dialogue is constant in that I can talk to myself to deal with my problems. My friends know that sometimes when I'm talking out loud to them, it's really just my inner voice needing to pass muster. Quite often I will answer my own questions when I begin to question things out loud - it's just another way for me to address that inner voice!
I have a beautiful friend who worked with me through a work personal & professional development program. Through that process I learned more about myself than ever before and really began to understand the person I am, the reasons I am that person, how my belief system worked (and was moulded) and how factors in my life have been influenced during my childhood.
I know my limitations. I know my comfort zones. And I'm not scared to push those zones. They've grown larger as I experiment with what I can do. Every new experience becomes the next push in what I am capable of achieving.
I've learned to become more secure. I've learned to trust that if others see potential in me, then perhaps I can trust in their belief in me.
But my greatest lesson has been learning to put my own voice forward when I have my doubts or feel uncomfortable and ask for help. I'm not good at that. The old me would say that that was a failure. The new me says it's ok to stumble, it's ok to fall, as long as I get back up. And getting up with a hand to assist is no failing either.
This week I stumbled. I didn't fall. But I did voice my concern. And I got the reassurance I needed to know I was headed in the right direction. It was a revelation and a fantastic learning for me. I will use that lesson in future - that's another thing about me - I rarely make the same mistake twice, and I take learnings from my lessons.
So there you have it. One week in, and still finding the positives.
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